ndi m alam kung gaano nya ako nasaktan nung dumating ka sa buhay nya…
ndi m alam kung gaano nadurog ang puso ko nung iniwan nya ako dahil sa yo…
he was my strength then…he was my happiness…he was my life…
i know now that was wrong… but u couldn’t blame me…
by now alam mo na kung paano siya magmahal…
kng bakit ganito ang aking nararamdaman…

ung tinutukoy m na parang ikaw ang pinakamagandang babae para sa kanya…
ikaw ang pinakamagandang prinsesa…ikaw ang kanyang reyna…walang iba…
siya nga yun…

ung “calls from diff parts of the country” and “romantic places”…
ung “spending time even if he’s stressed out”…
ung mga yakap na parang wala na siyang ibang mahihiling pa kundi makasama ka habangbuhay…
siya yun…

u dnt knw hw much it cost me to loose all of those things to you…
but he’s taught me how to love unconditionally…
and i was able to reach a point kung saan masaya ako na nakikita ko siyang masaya…
though i know i ain’t the reason for that happiness…
bsta masaya siya ok na…
pero anong ginawa m?

how could you?
pinipilit kong isipin na may maganda kang dahilan…
pinipilit kong hanapan ng katwiran kung bakit siya nasaktan…
pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko maiwasan…
naiinis ako sa yo, minsan nagagalit ako…
and that’s saying something…
kc kng kilala m ako…
malalaman mong ndi ako marunong magalit…

at the back of my mind…naiintindihan ko ang nangyari sa inyo…
pilit kong pinapaliwanag sa kanya kahit mahirap…
kahit hindi kita kilala…pinagtatanggol kita…
kahit masakit,pinipilit ko siyang mapatawa…
you must have your reasons as to why you’ve let ’tis happen…
pero sana naman, kahit konti lang…
nagawa mo siyang ipaglaban…
kc ipaglalaban ka nya…
ipaglalaban nya ung relationship nyo…
in a way na ndi nya gnawa sa relationship namin…
alam m ba kng gaano kasakit ang malaman…
na handa ka nyang ipaglaban kahit saan,kahit kailan…
pero ndi mo man lang un pinahalagahan…
in ur own words “u didn’t choose to take that extra mile…”
how could you?

and now u’re unto this charade of practically broadcasting to everyone that u’re ok?
that u’re going out? and moving on? and couldn’t have been better?
haven’t you done enough?

alam m bang he’s always on the lookout for mickey mouse stuff for you whenever we’re out?
the last one he’s given you, ksama pa nya ako bumili…
ako pa nkakita nung store kc may winnie the pooh…
pero ndi nya npansin c winnie the pooh…
nkita nya agad ung mickey mouse…dahil sa yo…
(i never like mickey mouse )
no u wouldn’t know how that felt…

alam m ba kng ilang beses nya pinutol ang friendship namin dahil ayaw m?
alam m ba na nung minsan ako pa ang naghatid sa kanya sa mtng place nyo…
(kc ikaw ang nagdecide kng san kayo magmimeet at ndi nya alam un)

i know u’re NOT ok…you’re actions say so…
i also know he is NOT ok… his eyes say so…
i’m trying my best to keep his mind off things…
to cheer him up… but no matter what i do…
i know i cannot make him as happy as he would be
if u’ve just chosen to take the extra mile…
8months ago i’ve begged him to stay…
he stayed, but with someone else…with you…
and now you’ve let him go…how could you?
sana man lang kahit konti, u’ve fought for him…
like he would’ve for you…

it may sound like it pero ndi kita sinisisi…
di naman tlaga ako kasali…
i know wala akong karapatan at wla ako dpat pakialam…
i know umiiyak ka at nahihirapan..
ganun din sha, npagod n lng cguro siya,
ginusto n lng nya magpahinga…
pero ndi mo alam sa nangyari…
ndi m rin nman sinasadya…
at kahit ayaw ko…
nasasaktan ako…
how could you?