LOSING GRIP

should i feel compensated that he does it with me and not with her?so ano pala talaga ako?should i feel compensated that i still have the edge?damn that edge!what’s that edge na hindi ko naman nararamdaman?half the time i feel like his life’s share of charity work.

pareho daw sila ng tama sa ulo, malakas magmura, malakas uminom, malakas magyosi, e leche ganun din ako a!hindi ba nya yun narealize in the past few months na magkasama kami?malayo daw siya, at least yung girl, nandito sa manila, e taena nasaan pala ako ha?nasa ibang planeta?ano ako alien?invisible ba ako?sana nga invisible na lang ako para hindi na ako magtataka kung bakit hindi nya ako nakikita.

mas mataray siya kaya kami magkaiba?e anong gagawin ko, kaya kong magpakamartir pero hindi ko kayang magpanggap.she’s gutsy?e ano palang tawag dun sa kung anong meron ako?you see her initiative as guts while mine is “being very vocal”?bakit yung sa kanya mas glorified yung term?i hate her guts!buti pa siya nakapagprisinta!bakit?cguro kya ka nya mahalin ng higit sa kaya ko?i’ve been giving it with the-everything-i-can crap without asking for anything in return but some… pero hindi, olats pa din.tapos magtataka siya kung bakit masama ang loob ko?the last thing i need is yung mga kabullshitang sagot na gawa-gawa ng utak pero hindi naman nararamdaman.lech, daig ko pa ang manikang de susi na disposable and reusable in one, voluntary nga lang yung susi!

oo, galit ako!akala mo hindi ako marunong nun?nakakaramdam din ako nun, kahit na uto-uto ako.kahit na madali akong bolahin, the so called ‘easy prey’, nasasaktan ako. kahit na pwede ko nang palitan si jose rizal sa monumento niya sa luneta dahil sa katangahan ko, hindi ako bato!

galit ako pero wala akong karapatang magalit.nasasaktan ako pero hindi dapat.umiiyak ako kahit bawal akong umiyak dahil may mga ibang bagay pa na kailangan ng tawa ko.pero anong magagawa ko?tao lang ako, I love you Piolo!

   
“Losing Grip”

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I’m not real
Didn’t you feel me wrap my arms around you
Why’d you turn away?
Here’s what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That’s when I decided

Why should I care
‘Cuz you weren’t there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I’m starting to trip, I’m losing my grip
And I’m in this thing alone

am i just some chick you place beside you
to take somebody’s place
when you turn around can you recognize my face
you used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn’t the case
Everything wasn’t okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That’s when I decided

Why should I care
‘Cuz you weren’t there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I’m starting to trip, I’m losing my grip
And I’m in this thing alone

Crying out loud
I’m crying out loud
Crying out loud
I’m crying out loud

Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
‘Cuz you weren’t there when I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care
‘Cuz you weren’t there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don’t care then I don’t care
We’re not going anywhere

Why should I care
‘Cuz you weren’t there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don’t care then I don’t care
We’re not going anywhere