memory chest
Sponsored Links
swtsexythng
SWTSEXYTHNG n.
/any way u wanna read it/
an online identity taken from a '97 hit
syn. ME
"MY BRAIN IS BIGGER THAN MY BOOBS!"
aries. coffee addict. single mom.
digs~snickers.junk foods.
blue roses.lines from dawson's creek.clothes.shoes.bags.accessories.
matched with style.and attitude.
loves~music.dialogues from films.
sparks.rowling.books.travels.sketching.
learning to cook.both life and food.
hopeless romantic.emotional spendthrift.
meantime girl.drama queen.
a little bit of everything.
a nonconformist who believes in
happy endings.jaded.hopeful.
contradicting.
has a conflicting love affair with words.
and human entanglements.
ODEO
Comments
- raine: sis! belated happy birthday ...
- raine: wala ng bibitaw....sana tuloy tuloy...
- Raymund Pogi!: happy birthday... real superwoman... hehe......
- raine: oh shit. and here i...
- raine: gurl wat po new num...
WHY I STILL SMILE
Thursday, October 20, 2005count your blessings they say…lemme try it my way…
i have my baby, who keeps me going each waking hour…i have a mom, who keeps me standing when i fall…i have friends, who keep up with my idiosyncracies… i have those people who are for keeps
i have a job that i suitably like…that gives me all the perks that i deserve… though it entails weird hours of work…it keeps me focused, keeps my drive…
and after all that’s happened to me, i’m still up and alive, living my life… albeit all the pains, tears and fears… i was able to match them with some little strength , determination and faith…
i’m so full of love…
i love Angela, i love Inay…
i love my friends…
and i love him still…
though i can’t make him love me…
that’s just as well…
i’ve gotten used to crying…
but every once in a while i smile…
and i hope it won’t take long…
’til i get used to smiling again…
ahhhhhhhh… sentiments of the hopefuls….
BITIN
10.18.05. now i know how it feels to have the proverbial ‘blue balls’.
but since i’m a female, the pain was not physical.
it is indeed painful, and one cannot complain.one can just wait until the pain subsides.
it was like being a volcano gearing up for multiple eruption, only to stop after the first one ‘coz nature would no longer allow. when it would have the second, third, so on and so forth eruption just so it could complete the multiple, the volcano does not know.
it was being in the heat of the moment, when you’re soooooo into something that you’ve been longing for, there within your grasp and taken away after you’ve taken just a glimpse of what it looks like.it’s like having no control of what would happen next.it’s powerful, it’s weakening that one cannot find enough strength to complain nor place for anger nor recognition for the unfairness of the whole scenario.
funny, guys feel the stinging sensation down there, while for me, it’s up here, inside my chest, throbbing to be satiated.
i’ve never thought of myself as insatiable but that moment, every fiber of my body was screaming that i was. having my very own ‘blue balls’ was(i felt like a cert FB),i felt so exposed, unprotected,unsafe, uncared for…
’twas like being awakened with splashing cold water on your face, more so like being slapped in the face with the truth…repetetively…
kaya pala sabi nila, magloko ka na sa lasing, wag lang sa bitin!