the month that was

often, one would find himself amused at how much could transpire in so short a time.
last June, I have just proven what people often say, “you can never tell…”
what with the gripes and smiles of the past month, I was hard put to even document them.
hence, this list, just so I would remember.

• Envy- confirmed a colleague has been living in envy. of me nonetheless. for reasons known only to herself. So miserable the degree of her jealousy that the people with whom she’s gabbed-badly- about me changed their minds and finally decided to tell. been making my office life a bit difficult as well that my relief in confirming the real score was immense. though her motives are not quite clear, I could guess a few. age would be on the top of my list, as I am more than a few years younger and she is, well details are too incriminating. let’s just say Katie Holmes to me is Lucille Ball to her.*laughs* we’re of the same post but never had I thought it would be a source of contention.true enough, should there be an opening for the next big step, we’d be the strong contenders, but with the way she’s been swiping asses left and right, she’s got that advantage. all i have is, modesty aside, my brains and poise. *wink* I have to admit I had been wincing at every self-righteous proclamation of accomplishments she tends to broadcast each time there’s a chance and there’s an ear who’d care to listen. I have been patient enough at the veiled barbs thrown my way thinking she might be close to menopausal stage. the two-faced telling of stories to the boss was beyond what I could endure but even that I was able to get past, resorting to tearful venting to real friends afterwards. but hearing her claims how I am a fave so I am not someone to befriend, that I am the boss’s apple of the eye so they have to be careful, is just LOW. before that, I was still able to retain a small amount of respect for her, but now all that’s left is pity. to her frustrations, I was hardly ever provoked. one, I am too busy. two, when I am not busy, my time is too precious to be spent on her. I am affected yes, as I am with every bit of lies and treachery in any way. I thought when I finally get a proof of her backstabbing I would make a move, then I realized I am smarter than that. so I’m afarid she would just have to wait until she does something so stupid I would have to finally make her see what she’s looking for. in the meantime, I have decided to be the brainy, smart ass, bubbly, and young colleague her envy is working so hard to bring down. as the boss see how poised I am despite everything, as fellow officemates realize how big of a liar she is, I would be smiling to her chagrin. I would say, round 1 to me. if she wants some more, bring it on.
• Wedding bells-no.not mine. been out of touch for quite a while now and this online social network was by far, the most effective means thru which I am updated with the latest happenings in my friends’ lives. and lo and behold, a couple of friends from college have been engaged to be married later this year, three high school friends have been wedded, one in church, one in a garden wedding, one in a civil ceremony in Italy.two of the high school recently married friends now have their kids, you do the math. and the other High school friend? well, a childhood sweetheart, the one with whom our teachers back then are betting I would end up with, I couldn’t deny that learning he’s married amused me.  and another high school friend whom I haven’t heard from for so long already gave birth. all in June. all in one month. amazing really.
• 2 front teeth - yes, my beloved son is teething. and we couldn’t be happier. we were scared to our wit’s end that he’d be colicky and sickly as other babies are during the said stage. but he’d just cry when he wants milk, or diaper change or simply wants to be cuddled. on the bed, he’s started to roll like crazy, laughing whenever he’s successful rolling on his back or trying to lie face down. he’s talking, though in the gibberish language babies employ. I have to admit now I have never heard any more entertaining and relaxing language. needless to say, we are hooked by our youngest’s antics.
• “Wala ng bibitaw”- those were his exact words in the midst of one of our most furious fights ever. so furious that I was on the verge of leaving and turning my back for good. articulation is not his best asset, nor are openess and life’s dramas his faves. so I know how much of an effort he’s summoned in order to utter those words. I didn’t take notice for I know he’s easily embarrased by his own outbursts of emotions. he’s wired that way. I know right now he has not figured out the details how we are going to go about it. but his declaration melted my anger and instantly resolved the fight. so that’s what on his mind. been praying even more, that his proclamation would be forevermore. here’s to fighting for the thing that makes life worth living.