back at one

just feels like i am back at one

a very glorious one *wink*

i’ve got moves u ain’t seen

as early as now, i feel like i have exchausted half of my moves for year.
though i am optimistic thinking i have doubled my capacity as i would like to each year.
lemme see, counting off my fingers…

changed companies. i have ended my almost 3 years stint in company NP and have moved closer to home.
i’ll call it company T.after months of contemplating on whether i could do it, i was able to muster enough courage
and made the move. i could not say it was not easy. but it was good. company NP, in all fairness, tried to counter, but no price could be enough to pay for company T’s location. albeit, i still hold the same public service post of a Team Lead, there are numerous perks. i no longer have to commute a cumulative 4 hours a day to get to and from work. i only have to spend a total of 15 minutes, 20 if i am taking my time, walking to and from work. once again, i’m enjoying the comforts of being just a stone’s throw away from home. i sleep peacefully at night-yes, i’m no longer in the graveyard shift- knowing i was able to give 110% to my job without sacrificing any quality time with my family.

changed homes. with a new office comes a new house that we now proudly call home. it was such a process moving single-handedly facilitated by my caring partner, which resulted to him being sick the following week. as undomesticated as i am, my partner patiently did his part and more in making sure our new abode would be comfortable.i made it up to him by making sure he got well really soon a couple of days after. now we have new neighbors, my kids have new playmates and we have a new town to explore.

changed tactics.i don’t particularly like using the term “tactics” since it sounds so scheming but it is the most apt. i have found new courage that sprung in me my newfound confidence. eversince these moves i have faced challenges without recognizing they were challenges at all until after i’m done dealing with them and relishing the thought that i was able to do it.i now rally on headfirst, almost always. there’s a new task given to me, i study it as quickly as i can and make sure i dleiver way before the deadline. more tasks assigned to me, i thyink ‘i must be doing well then’. people doesn’t like me? could hardly give a damn. people liking me? well, who wouldn’t? i guess what i’m trying to say is inside me now is a newfound optimism that not even the most hopeless of cases could put down. no failed attempt could dampen my spirits now. and it feels good. i don’t know how and why i found this but i just know i did. when i find out, i would blog about it.

change is constant.change is good.and hell yeah i’m loving it!

1st quarter storm

as usual i have been away from blogging for months on end…
and now i feel overwhelmed for the nth time with thoughts teeming in my head…
so much has been done and i doubt if words would be enuff since so much has happened…
there are old stuff and new ones that i now am itching to convert into posts…

of all the glorious and atrocious,
these first quarter surely tops the list.

the month that was

often, one would find himself amused at how much could transpire in so short a time.
last June, I have just proven what people often say, “you can never tell…”
what with the gripes and smiles of the past month, I was hard put to even document them.
hence, this list, just so I would remember.

• Envy- confirmed a colleague has been living in envy. of me nonetheless. for reasons known only to herself. So miserable the degree of her jealousy that the people with whom she’s gabbed-badly- about me changed their minds and finally decided to tell. been making my office life a bit difficult as well that my relief in confirming the real score was immense. though her motives are not quite clear, I could guess a few. age would be on the top of my list, as I am more than a few years younger and she is, well details are too incriminating. let’s just say Katie Holmes to me is Lucille Ball to her.*laughs* we’re of the same post but never had I thought it would be a source of contention.true enough, should there be an opening for the next big step, we’d be the strong contenders, but with the way she’s been swiping asses left and right, she’s got that advantage. all i have is, modesty aside, my brains and poise. *wink* I have to admit I had been wincing at every self-righteous proclamation of accomplishments she tends to broadcast each time there’s a chance and there’s an ear who’d care to listen. I have been patient enough at the veiled barbs thrown my way thinking she might be close to menopausal stage. the two-faced telling of stories to the boss was beyond what I could endure but even that I was able to get past, resorting to tearful venting to real friends afterwards. but hearing her claims how I am a fave so I am not someone to befriend, that I am the boss’s apple of the eye so they have to be careful, is just LOW. before that, I was still able to retain a small amount of respect for her, but now all that’s left is pity. to her frustrations, I was hardly ever provoked. one, I am too busy. two, when I am not busy, my time is too precious to be spent on her. I am affected yes, as I am with every bit of lies and treachery in any way. I thought when I finally get a proof of her backstabbing I would make a move, then I realized I am smarter than that. so I’m afarid she would just have to wait until she does something so stupid I would have to finally make her see what she’s looking for. in the meantime, I have decided to be the brainy, smart ass, bubbly, and young colleague her envy is working so hard to bring down. as the boss see how poised I am despite everything, as fellow officemates realize how big of a liar she is, I would be smiling to her chagrin. I would say, round 1 to me. if she wants some more, bring it on.
• Wedding bells-no.not mine. been out of touch for quite a while now and this online social network was by far, the most effective means thru which I am updated with the latest happenings in my friends’ lives. and lo and behold, a couple of friends from college have been engaged to be married later this year, three high school friends have been wedded, one in church, one in a garden wedding, one in a civil ceremony in Italy.two of the high school recently married friends now have their kids, you do the math. and the other High school friend? well, a childhood sweetheart, the one with whom our teachers back then are betting I would end up with, I couldn’t deny that learning he’s married amused me.  and another high school friend whom I haven’t heard from for so long already gave birth. all in June. all in one month. amazing really.
• 2 front teeth - yes, my beloved son is teething. and we couldn’t be happier. we were scared to our wit’s end that he’d be colicky and sickly as other babies are during the said stage. but he’d just cry when he wants milk, or diaper change or simply wants to be cuddled. on the bed, he’s started to roll like crazy, laughing whenever he’s successful rolling on his back or trying to lie face down. he’s talking, though in the gibberish language babies employ. I have to admit now I have never heard any more entertaining and relaxing language. needless to say, we are hooked by our youngest’s antics.
• “Wala ng bibitaw”- those were his exact words in the midst of one of our most furious fights ever. so furious that I was on the verge of leaving and turning my back for good. articulation is not his best asset, nor are openess and life’s dramas his faves. so I know how much of an effort he’s summoned in order to utter those words. I didn’t take notice for I know he’s easily embarrased by his own outbursts of emotions. he’s wired that way. I know right now he has not figured out the details how we are going to go about it. but his declaration melted my anger and instantly resolved the fight. so that’s what on his mind. been praying even more, that his proclamation would be forevermore. here’s to fighting for the thing that makes life worth living.

Random Thoughts

• they say salespeople are damn good liars. i say that's coz they learn a lot of it from their customers.
• happiness and sorrow have one thing in common, they're both contagious.
• the minute you light up a cig an take your first puff, you think 'tis would be the last..', but as you take your last, you think 'i'd light another one.'
• the most effective way to acquire a positive OUTlook is to first acquire a positive INsight.
• it's not always a good thing to see something beautiful, hear something nice or feel something wonderful. in fact it's the worst thing that can happen to someone in a bad situation.
• some guys are grade-A assholes but only girls can give meaning to grade-A jerks.